Geez- another week where I almost didn’t make it! Surely, by year’s end, you all will see the Procrastination post I use to keep myself motivated. But not today. 😀
This week was good. We’re up to 25 pages on Craig’s story, approaching 100 on Cirque, and I’m nearly at the half-way mark with my first edit through of Rain’s story.
And I’m having loads of fun on my gratuitous candy play collab, but that’s another story. 😛
I’m hitting the point where I’m really considering what I want to do with Rain’s story when it’s all polished up. It’s a pretty straight forward YA novel format – no crazy weblit plans here. But I’m so loathe to make my start on YA. I hate writing YA. It’s boring to me. I want there to be lots of sex and lots of violence and I want it to be ok that character rape each other all the time, or try to pull limbs off, or skin people. Does it actually happen much? Well, no, not really, unless we’re dealing with X character, Y character or Z character (ha, that’s funny, as Z is actually one of my most disturbing characters :P). But the point is, I want the freedom for those characters to be as gritty crazy as they need to be, and I can’t do that in YA.
So what do I do? Query for Rain’s story anyways and hope that if it gets accepted, no one asks me to write more? Not an option I’m thrilled about. I could self-pub, but I worry about kids liking Rain’s stuff and then reading Xaph stuff (oh look, my X character :P) or something like. I don’t want to lure 12 years old with something kinda dark (cause Rain’s story has some death in it, I”ll be upfront about that) and then have them read something where people are regularly raped and tortured casually. Like, just a part of life. Because for some characters, it is. Doesn’t mean it always gets graphic screen time, but it’s still there, and it’s still presented with an attitude that I don’t like for kids.
I could use a pen name, but Rain features in a lot of the more adult books, once she grows up. I hate to try and sort out all that mess.
What to do, what to do…